My art flows

It has been one year since I was diagnosed with PTSD and during this time the constant has been the flow of my art. With the careful treatment of the ever unraveling rollercoaster of traumatic events that have happened in my past, I am able to thankfully express myself and my feelings through my collages.

art flows wounded collage by Dena Leibowitz

I call this wounded. It depicts the depths of my childhood trauma. My head literally popping off from the realization of what had happened to me – neglect, abandonment, rejection. I feel as though I was both physically and mentally shot. This collage was a difficult one to make and quite powerful that I find at times uneasy for me to look at. Acceptance will bring me closer to it.

art flows nurture collage by Dena Leibowitz

This collage I call nurture. This is where my hope lies. My story began at birth. I was adopted. At that moment my inner child felt her first taste of abandonment and detachment. With the power of my recovery, I now am capable of my responsibility of giving my inner child the nurturing she needs helping her to heal the wounds that run so deep. Creating new dialogue, easing her pain and sadness, passing no judgment upon her and giving her only unconditional love. With her growth I will become a stronger more resilient woman.

My art flows. My feelings flow. And my days and nights ebb and flow. Living with PTSD has been no picnic. But I show up each day, I do my work and I share my art with gratitude that I am able to do so and thankful to those who find support and inspiration in my creations.

4 thoughts on “My art flows

  1. You have utterly inspired me to try my hand at creating something other than words, because these say so, so much. Nurture choked me up instantly. Beautiful stuff.
    Amy (PTSD Narratives)

  2. Very interesting.

    Art is a major part of the treatment programs in the two hospitals run by Colin Ross MD. He specializes in the treatment of dissociative identity disorder. I don’t think we can be confident that working alone with art will cure much, but with skilled direction, and as part of other better validated treatment interventions, it certainly can have great value. Many individuals have attested to this.

    It’s good to have you making your work and story available to others like this. Also brave! Thank you.

    • Thank you Tom for your comments. I appreciate your awareness of the healing power of art. Listening to others share their stories has always been a supportive tool for me. Sharing mine is my way of paying it forward.


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